please

you found me
on my knees
a salty runlet, red
seeping to the hardwood floors.
I asked you
please, just please,
stay away
let me do this
by myself,
so you stand still
and watch
one by one,
I pick them up
tissue and bone, crystal skin
broken into shivers,
how small these pieces are!
I collect them
with my right hand
put them in my left
palm against glass
flesh against quartz, this
flame you blew out
with syrupy words
and your honey-dipped smile
a promise of friendship
that slit the throat of a
hopeful heart.

I asked you,
please, just please,
let me do this by myself,
myself is all I have.

PLEASE
ccg